Yeah yeah...I know, I feel bad. But the point is I've tried, I'm still trying and I have cut down shit loads!!

Well enough of that, time to give you an insite to my life.

Today is Saturday, or was in five minutes, and generally I sleep in, wake upi about 12, tidy up and read a good book. Not today though, my mother was in town. And off course she is an early riser. So Iam up at the crack of dawn (8.30am), tiding up like mad, and hiding all evidence that I actually smoke. Sad I know, I'm 23 a fully grown adult and I still hide the fact I smoke like a school girl. Its just I don't want the whole 'I'm not angry I'm just disapointed' speach or the 'I quit so I could live longer to see my grandchildren' speech. So I plan to quit by the time she find out so I can do the 'You smoked I smoke but I quit following your example' speech.

So anyhoo, she arrived, but we had to go straight out to my work because the goddamn ATM machine broke, and obviously I'm the only one in the whole bank that can fix it. I shouldn't be so good at my job. Well I did get fifty quid for five minutes. Hey ho.

So we went shopping, called in on my boyfried who was working. Bought clothes, clothes being a loverly dress a size 10 whoo hooo!! Them salads I have been eating have realy paid off, but feel sorry for my boyfried and cat cause I can't stop farting and other stuff. That'll hopefully pass soon, or I will have to start eating the bad food again, as a service to my boyfriend and cat. A

te lunch, then she stayed until five. How many hours is that without a fag? (answers on a stamped addressed envelope please) Well it was a long time,and I didn't have any cravings, fantastic. But as soon as she leaves, the cravings come out, cause I can have one, cause its my own roof and while I live under my roof I live by my rules.

So tommorro, Im gonna sleep in until 12am, wake up, tidy up, read a book, and not have a fag until 6pm. This is my way of tricking myself in quiting eventually. Setting challenges where there are rewards will make it easier I think. And anyway its gotta be benificial to my health, the fewer cancer sticks I smoke the more likly it will be that I will see my grandchildren.

Ta Muchly